déjà vu

....And I was soooo optimistic that 2012 was going to be a better year.

I recently found out that my December mammograms (two, BTW) revealed some more spots of something. That means that next week, I will be having another biopsy.

Same shit, different year.

I know the drill; don't worry about anything until you get the result in your hand. Don't think about worst case scenarios and how you'll look bald after all your hair falls out (terrible, for the record. I have at least 2 huge birthmarks on my head that will cause me grief). There are many treatments, some of which you experienced, and they weren't horrible. It's early; we probably caught it early enough.

Still.

I'm annoyed.

I'm depressed.

I don't feel like going to any more doctors.

I don't feel optimistic.

I want to hibernate and not come out until June.

I want to scream and cry "Why ME?". I took it like a champ the first time; I did everything that was asked of me. I take a drug daily to prevent reoccurrence. I paid my dues.

Still. Cancer wins.

I am accepting all the good mojo, vibes, prayers and juju you want to send me!

Project Life: week 3

Welcome to week three of Project Life.

This week has been a busy one. In addition to doing PL, I was also finishing up all the crafts for my 'Make Something 2012' project. I had so much fun making things for my friends, that I will probably do it again before the year is up. HINT HINT*

I didn't plan on having a 6x12 page this week, but with the MS pics, I didn't have enough room to fit it all in otherwise. Funny, how I start the week off thinking I won't have enough pics and by the end of the week I'm struggling to get them all on there!

This week I also included my Bunco card, a 'hello life' graphic from Ali, and a quote that I found on Pinterest.

I also used one of Cathy's tiny templates for my NOT A TYPO block. I really like these and know I will use them every week.

I also dug thru the mounds of stuff I have and found some journaling blocks, rub ons, and many other little bits of things I want to use.

I had absolutely nothing to put on the backside of the 6x12, so I highlighted my favorite photo of the week.

I made the mosaic using Big Huge Labs mosaic maker and just put it into my document. It's starting to get easier to make all the digital elements. I love them!

ps. If you are on my recipients list, be expecting a package in the next few days!

*my 600th blog post is coming up soon. On that day, I will make something for the first 5 people who leave a comment on this blog. Keep an eye out!

Project Life: week 2 {I'm still here!}

I finally finished off week 2 and was able to photograph it before it got too dark outside. Go me!

The whole spread. Astute viewers may ask, "Is that a french fry bag?" And the answer would be yes, it is a french fry bag. Why? Because I like it.

As you can see, this week I broke out some embellishments. And my sewing machine. I created two 6x12 layouts again this week, for more storytelling.

I really love these page protectors, and working with little canvasses. They are perfect for Instagram pix and little decorations.

So far this project is the bombdiggity. Even if the people at Costco think I'm crazy for ordering 67 cents worth of photos at a time.

stuff

I have started approximately 9,341 projects in the last few days and finished exactly one of them. I don't know what the deal is, why I'm so scattered right now. I'm going to chalk it up to the fact that I've had a headache every day in January, no exaggeration. I'm sleeping for crap, and then walking around like a zombie for the rest of the day. In the meantime, my brain has chosen 3 am as prime "Great Idea!" time. Instead of capitalizing, I'm fighting it.

In other words, I'm a mess.

I will {maybe} take pictures of my Project Life week 2 tomorrow. If the sun shines. If my head hasn't exploded first.

In the meantime, a photo of something pretty and fun I've been working on...

Later!

Project Life: week 1

I made it through week one! And I don't want to quit yet! Go me :)

I am using an American Crafts album that I had sitting around. I found some cute patterned paper to cover it with, but it's not quite big enough. I've got the think about how I want to proceed.

I borrowed a few page protectors from Nicole, so that I could get started. I also had some 6x12 page protectors that I threw in there. I had to re-punch the holes, but they work just fine. Look at me making due!

I used these templates from Cathy Zielske for the journaling.

I used this template from Ali Edwards on the backside to include a longer story. I've never done much with digital scrapping before, and it took me three times as long as writing out the story would have taken me, but I love the way it looks, and it will only get easier!

I've pulled out a few stamps to add a word each week and some dates. I'm trying to keep it simple. I may decide to go back and add some embellishments at some time, but for right now, it's good.

Except I notice that I forgot to take a photo of the second page by itself.

I'm on Fire

I have been coveting the new Kindle Fire for the last three months, and yesterday it became mine!

I haven't had much time to play with it. I ended up with a monster migraine last night and didn't play. Today I have been gone almost all day. I will have it mastered by this weekend!

I don't know what to call my new gadget. This is the song I hear in my head every time I think of it:

So I need suggestions for what I should call it. Bernadette? Bernice? Something less fiery?

Project Life

I am such a sucker.

I will jump on any bandwagon, especially those that involve buying new stuff.

It's all Nicole's fault.

I have been able to resist buying all the latest and greatest scrapbooking supplies. 5 years. That's how long it's been since I've scrapped. I miss it, and yet can't picture myself putting the time into the hobby that I used to.

Enter Project Life.

Already this project is stressing me out, because I came late to the party and all the good stuff is gone. I ordered the Clementine core kit. Because I need something new and pretty to get the mojo flowing.

I don't have the page protectors. I don't have the monthly dividers. I don't have the album. What I do have is a room full of stuff I haven't used in far too long. For me, this project will be about using what I have and getting reacquainted with scrapping.

And in February I can have the page protectors and dividers and journal cards.

Wish me luck!

Happy New Year!

2012. It's finally here!

I was more than ready to let go of 2011.

I'm hoping for a stress free, drama free, cancer free 2012.

I know that I probably won't get everything I want, but hoping that by putting it out there, it will be so! The power of positive thinking, ya know!

And I started off the new year by ringing it in with my BFF, who came to visit for 2 days. It was awesome.

Glad to see you, 2012. I hope we'll be friends.